My mother came home this afternoon and asked, more like announced, "Have you all had lunch? Come, let's go to the country club for Christmas lunch!"


So my sister and I were like, Huh? Anyway we got ready in a jiffy and were out to Serangoon Gardens Country Club. The church adults were really nice to us. They know our situation. And somehow when we got there it was like meeting family. They were all like asking us to sit and eat before the people clear the food up. Food was yum.


It was a great lunch.


After lunch, deposited bake class pay, then bought 3 packs of jerhigh treats for cracker with the money I won from Dave Tay. Haha! Enough talk, shall go into pics now because i realized I havent been posting much. And my sister finally dyed her hair with the dye i bought her for her birthday. Not much diff la.





Maxine cut bangs for her and, she kinda looks like a lil kid now. Acts like one too.











Look at her face. Classic!



Mosquito bites~






I love my sister when she doesnt bully me! She pinched me very very hard last night because I woke her up at half time during the game instead of 60 mins. Theres an invisible bruise.





CAUSE WE DONT LOOK ALIKE!






With mama






At home with Lucky girl!

















When Araxes kissed Lucky, Lucky kissed me! So I should have kissed Araxes to make a triangle.



Marcus Macadamia Ang.








Cadbury. Who ai-mei with Lucky.



Nice right.



They was lookin at lizards yo.



Strudel chased him all the way to the other end while we were watching Wolves vs Burnley. Sad that Burnley lost. I respect them as a team because against top sides, theyre very efficient. They dont boast bout it. Sad that they had a few penalty appeals denied. Should have had at least one granted.


Anyway, guess what? I'm working at 12pm to 11pm tomorrow. SHIOK AH..................................... ya quite shiok. I just hate clearing tables. Hurts my wrist. Haha!


Goodnight all. Waking up early's on the list.

Arsenal won 3 nil against Hull City this morning. It was an exciting match! Arsenal players were like babarians and fought with Hull City. I never liked them! Actually I never liked them because I never liked Phil Brown, who, at the beginning of the season last year said that his side had the capability to go on top after winning Arsenal 2-1 and then his side came crashing down at one point and that made me happy.


Manuel Almunia saved a penalty kick from Geovanni (whom I actually do not like also!). It was a magical moment for me. I was doing the pose that our Yoga teacher taught us... It grants wishes. I was wishing that Almunia would save the penalty.... And he did. After he did, I was like................ astonished. Flabbergasted. Confounded. Thunderstruck! I could only stare at my hands. They command such power!


And last night I also wished that Arsenal would win and thrash Hull. They did! A 3 nil whopping is a good enough thrashing for me, just like Fulham thrashed Man U 3 nil last night.



And Mark Hughes got sacked as manger of man city! Wahaha. But I have to say that I felt a little sad when they showed him clapping and waving goodbye to the home crowd after the game with Sunderland. He looked like he was gonna cry. He's only human.


And watching Rafa's post match interview made me pissed off. Liverpool lost 2 nil to PORTSMOUTH last night. And all he said about Mascherano's sending off is "I dont make mistakes" like dunno how many times. What a weirdo. I do think he is trying to get sacked. Thought that long time ago but no one agreed with me!





I am so hungry now.

www.postsecret.com

Today in my head I threw it away. No. Actually. Last night in my head I threw it away. Why? The physical presence lingers but not the emotional attachment. No more.


You've been missing out on parts of my life!

Thursday work was fun. SOOOO much food to eat. Ellaine my asst. manager shared her curry chicken rice with me. Next time when y'all come to bakerzin, you should try it. I think it is quite nice. Then, the management team came and brought lots of food. In the kitchen we were eating sushi and tiramisu in tiny cups. There was egg prata which I didn't eat. Phoebe the barista gave me two cups of cappuccino. And Yvette keyed in a wrong order so we had sausage with eggs and baked beans from the kids menu. The egg somehow just tasted very nice.


LAM JUST CALLED ME! asked me to work at suntec city today. I told her today cannot ah, coz got family dinner at the Lees later on. Stupid Araxes not going coz she wants to watch soccer. Emmanuel was like, "SO WATCHING SOCCER IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN A FAMIL Y GATHERING!?!?!?!?"



Where was I. Yup, had a lot of food on Thursday. Actually was supposed to work at 6pm that day, but Ellaine called me in earlier at 4pm so I left early. Thursday was also the day I got a Hello from a very old old friend named Augustine Pang. I was messaging him while working. You know there are CCTV cameras watching our every move....



Andddddddd, after work, we all sat down at the couch tables and had to cakes. The chocolate amer and another, which I THINK is called Sweet Pleasure. I must familiarize with the cake counter soon. I like the latter because it's a mixture of textures. Like ferrero rocher in a cake. It was real yummy I ate it all while Christian danced away and Phoebe was saying "BITCH STOP DANCING LA!"


If I eat like that every day at Bakerzin I'll become a snowman soon.


Then............ yesterday = Friday, woke early coz it was Chrishirl's Bake With Me workshop at her place. She came to pick me up and we went to Fairprice Finest which was super cold. Bought the stuff, went home, saw their new Dalmatian-Lab pup, played with the boys, read the papers, had lunch, the kids came, baked blueberry muffins banana cake pasta and made salad. Yumz. Aunt Shirley then sent me to Little India to take a train to Harbourfront at 5pm and I was early for work HENG AH coz Lam was there and the other time I was late for 5 mins and I got a warning. Hahahahah.



Another great day at work. But Ohnmar was sad coz of some bitchy customer who complained about the tiniest thing to Lam and so the mood sullened a little.


So after work as usual, went with Pete to watch him smoke and bitch about work. I scolded him for the smoke that came my way. HENG AH (for the second time today) that after his student attachment he'll be coming back to work. Pete is actually a very sad person :( he's from HK and he's been living in Singapore alone for ten over years because of poor relations with his family. And he lives in Pasir Ris alone in a rented room and we were talking about how he'd rent half a room to me then after school we can go home together and after work we can go home together and wake up and go to school/work together again. He was like, "You can have three quarters of my wardrobe and you can sleep on the bed and I sleep on the floor." Funny how most of the tertiary institutes are along the green aka East West Line.


Then something funny happened. I was playing with his cigg box and I was like, "EH GOT ONE MORE INSIDE LEH!" so I took it and started bending it. Pete was giving me the you-dare-we-see-what-happens face. So I was happily bending it and SUDDENLY IT BROKE!!!!!!!! Then I tio shock coz I didn't expect it to break easily. I thought he was gonna scold me. But he just laughed. So I laughed too. We had a good laugh about it.


Then I looked in the box again and "EH GOT ONE MORE LEH!" so since I broke one already, I broke another. HAHAHA. He wasn't like pissed at all. He has me to thank.


Then we talked about our family. our siblings... We made an agreement, that if my mom/dad cooks I'm to invite him over for dinner coz he misses home cooked food.


So, ON AH!


Reached home at like 12 plus though work ended at 2310. But it was nice talking. I love the Bakerzin people, like Pete Rain Tina Christian (who Pete calls a lazy fuck) Ohnmar Phoebe Fiona, nice people they are.


Speaking of Christian. On Thursday night he was super happy. Then he was at Station 2, and I was like, "Eh go do setting for that table" and he was like, "Wait! I watching movie." referring to the couple nearest to us playing on the couch, doing dunno what. "It's like watching Lovers in Paris," said he. "Stupid horny man," said I. "Can't blame him," said Yvette. "Coz his girlfriend so far away."


So his off day last night was what contributed to the slut dance too. Like the slutwave Kt always does with such skill.



Rainy day today. Chores day. Cracker's bath. He's been a good boy. Araxes was full of praises for him on Thurs night because thanks to her, Cracker had his walk, during which he was very obedient and walked the right pace.


The right pace is always important.

I don't feel very much poetic today. But the clicker just lures me back to this page. Perhaps it's the blues streaming from the speakers of my laptop, coupled with the cool air of noon time. Rare occurence, I must say about the latter.

Last night I had a dream. It was me, talking to a woman.

"I am hungry," I said.

"There's milk in the fridge. You can have milk with honey stars. But that's your sister's. So you can have milk with oreos instead,"

I was delighted. I didn't know that we had oreos in the pantry.

"You bought oreos? I really am hungry," I said.

So I left a place. In the pantry I appeared and began scouring for the box of oreos. I couldn't find it.

I woke up and couldn't sleep. I had fruit tarts and slices of roast chicken and fish for breakfast. And a glass of milk. Without oreos. Trying hard to decipher the dream but to no avail. I don't think it is what I think it is.



Sigh. You know the questions that surround Nature versus Nurture? If everything is natural then it'd be so hard to depend on kismet to get things done your way. It's as if with our birth, everything is laid out for us, planned for us, waiting for us to get it done. It's like chores to be fufilled, tasks to tick off your to-do-list. Ironically it's like horoscopes, dependent on the arrangement of the planets. I suppose they're like weather forecasts.


If everything is laid out for me, awaiting discovery, then, I'd be disappointed. Disappointed with my surprise at the propinquity of a familiar voice, that I wasn't able to know about it sooner, that I could have avoided it all. Because when something catches you by the tail, it ends up not as a surprise, but a shock.

Tragedy.

Screw the world
Make it a better place
For you, and for me
And the entire human race


That was what I was singing in Bakerzin's kitchen last night while polishing cutlery.

Last night's work sucked! Is it me or is work getting suckier? Lam told me not to take orders! Because I'm still a RUNNER and I'm supposed to just SERVE the damn food. Today I am under Ellaine. So I think I can. Anyway after work ended, Lam had a team talk and then she explained her rationale and all. I guess I understood. Tina had a bad day at work. First time taking and keying in orders, but Lam was nice and understanding.


Lam said I'm a fast learner! But because the festive season's here and so we've to stick to our own stations first. Suppose work isnt that bad. That's the whole problem with me. I tend to contradict myself.




Work today at 6pm, tomorrow work at 6pm but helping at Chrishirl's workshop at 1 to 5pm. Busy busy busy.

My aunt from Hongkong returned to SG last night and they're having a family dinner tonight but I can't go! Sigh.


And Arsenal drew 1-1 with Burnley this morning. Why man why. And Fabregas is injured. WHY MAN WHY. Definitely not a time to drop points.



Other than that, nothing else. My life is mundane, my period just came. It rhymes!

So drinking the night before left me a little laggy for work last night. I think my brain was lagging by 10 seconds or something. I took a few orders, and a few wrong ones. A lady ordered Iced Lychee Mint and I wrote Iced Lime Mint. Another ordered Aglio Olio without chilli and I forgot to add the special request, so the lady was left gulping down glasses of ice water. I know that feeling coz I hate spicy stuff. And that made me feel even more guilty.

I got my name tag WITH MY NAME on it yesterday, so I'm no longer called TRAINEE but CLAUDIA instead. KT, eat shit! You can laugh at me no more ha ha.


I don't understand why customers like to come in at 9.30 when our last order for main courses is at 10pm. we were full house by 10pm last night. Everyone was so pissed because we all wanted to go home. The best part was halfway I suddenly fell sick. Had the flu.

Hahaha there was a family of four, among them were two toddler boys. One looked like Pete! So I told him, "Eh look, there's a mini Pete." and he disagreed. I think it's because the colour of their tops matched. So we were standing at station 2 making funny faces at Mini Pete's brother. He didn't like Pete. he preferred me! Pete looks gross when he tries to be cute. Hahahaha.



Came home, walked Cracker, went to sleep at 1am and totally K.O (stupid xbox game), woke at 1305 this afternoon. Sneezed like 16 times, and yes I counted. Peipei was looking at me with a concerned expression. I think I should be alright soon. Working later at 6pm anyway.


I had a weird dream last night! I could remember them when I first woke but now I can't. One part was me looking at this tailor, who makes dresses at 35 bucks each. So I was telling myself, "I should ask him to make the dress that I've always wanted!" and then when I was about to tell him I said, "But that's 7 hours of work!"



Oh that reminds me. Tonight's work also means that I can't attend the ZHBball annual bbq. :(


Ahhh, now coughing like hell also. My eyes feel so watery. Shit this man.



Still looking for a second job. At this rate I'm earning too little than I expected. KT, IS LOGITECH HIRING!? Hahaha.

So it sits in my bag
Looking like a rag
Water stained with its tape
Peeled and closed about its pape
Paper. Are the words smudged?
In my mind I have seen myself
Tearing it just to piece it back
Burning it just to rewrite it all
But I'll keep it
I'll keep it for now

It wouldn't be fair.
Yes, no it wouldn't be fair.
To write something only to keep it for yourself
When it's meant for another
He deserves it
Perhaps more than anything else.




Can I rant just a little bit more? You know how in the past, or maybe still today, people wanted to be the same as the peers so to fit in. But nowadays, people try so hard to be different just to fit in. Because being different is in! Listening to music other people don't listen to, reading things people don't usually read, talking shit in all sorts of weird ways. Them trying too hard to adjust to abnormality. I have been through such a phase before whereby I listened to crap music and proclaimed them nice, but those days are long gone now. I am thankful for that. Being caught in a paperchase is better than being caught in an identity crisis.



Just a little while.


The other day I was telling KT and Darrylin about a conversation I had with my nephews while we were in the pool.

The boys were giggling, and Emmanuel told Eduard to ask me something.

"Do you know what's the F word?" he asked.

"Nope, is it Fun?"

"No! It has four letters. F-U-C....."

"I don't know about it. What is it?" I asked. I wondered if what I did was the right thing, because "bad language is a stage all children go through" and perhaps I was supposed to clarify matters.

"You really don't know?"

"What it mean?"

"F-U-C-K is the baddest of all bad words," Eduard told me while Emmanuel refilled his watergun. "It is stupid, idiot, asshole, and all other bad words combined together!"


And he is only nine. I think I only knew the f word when I was eleven. But at that age too I didn't really know what it meant until I was 12.



At first I saw it as the breaking down of innocence. But why see it that way? Guess it's a learning process. At one stage of our life or another we're gonna learn such things anyway. As usual, with the behaviour of children, there is no ratiocination. Sometimes we point it to wanting to be like others, because children crave attention and acceptance. But we don't see otherwise.

Thought I'll be very tired today, but no! I'm not very tired! I'm bored at home! Work later at 6pm.

Just got home, just had a bath and a teeth brush, and a conversation with Cracker. Chitann's birthday chalet was fun, just can't help swooning over the beauty of the resort. My first time. And I don't really go to resorts and all anyway.


Drank a little, didn't get drunk but was dizzy like crazy. Now I know why they say Don't Drink and Drive. I think we say it so often that most of us don't understand why at all. So now I finally do. Couldn't even walk straight.

BUT I EARNED 20 BUCKS FROM DAVE TAY! HAHAHA. Coz Chitann's dad gave him green tea mixed with some spirit, i think it's Bombay Sapphire. It tasted like soap so dave tay didn't want to drink it. I said if you give me 50 bucks I'll drink it for you! But he said he didn't have 50 so I settled for 20 and I drank it and I earned 20 bucks! But because, i think, I drank too fast that's why I became giddy. I haven't been drinking in more than a year. The last time I drank was the tuttis in 2007, or was it 2006, at Timbre. So long ago. Luckily I didn't drink beer. I hate beer. The yeast makes the stomach huge.


Then wine. Wine was good coz it was a chilly night. And then coke with spirits.


Stoned for a while, felt better, watched the guys play Fifa. Played house of the dead with Wii. SPEAKING OF WII, Charlotte, Kimjoo and I were playing boxing and tennis in the afternoon. Like Chin Hwee said, boxing is really such a work out! But somehow Eikkar knows how to do it without jumping around. Charlotte says I look funny when I'm playing boxing.

Then Kim and Charlotte played baseball, a game which I think I will never understand. Charlotte so tyco, can get double and homerun, then kimjoo kept getting FOUL BALL! FOUL BALL! HAHAHA ok anyway.......




Slept for 7 hours. Since I was the only girl staying over (it was a last minute decision), I slept by myself in the corner and it was great. Good sleep! Joel said I snored. I WASN'T SNORING. I was doing Victoria's Breath, which is the throat breathing we learnt in Yoga. HAHA whatever.


Oh oh! After my dizzy spell, some of us were sitting in a circle, just talking. Then Dave Tay said something about Arsenal I think! So I slapped him, but my slap went across his nose. Then like five minutes later his nose started bleeding suddenly. Funny shit.



Oh well that's enough. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHITANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!! Thanks for the food fun games. And your parents and uncle!


I'm getting fairer........................................................ )=

Labels: birthdays

Look at Kt and I taking delight in tricking our primary school friend from 4 years ago. She left for Thailand when we were 11 and made us all heartbroken :( She's 19 now and she's in Mahidol University studying liberal arts! Her name is Ploy Pimhathai Ruamsamu.


Ploy says:
r u still 2gether?

Claudia says:
TOGETHER?
we're in a relationship!
we're lesbians!

Ploy says:
nahhh

Claudia says:
really

Ploy says:
i mean like study in the same place or sth
really?

Claudia says:
nope we dont study in the same place and yup we're together!
heehee

Ploy says:
r u serious ??

Claudia says:
ya

Ploy says:
lesbian??

Claudia says:
both of our dp is both of us!
ya
ask kt

Ploy says:
ummm

KT says:
HAHA

Ploy says:
okkkk

KT says:
so embarrassing~

Claudia says:
ya lor
she dont believe

KT says:
haha
too shy to say

Ploy says:
i tot both of u like guysss

Claudia says:
HAHAHA
we've changed, you know
so long already
4 years leh

KT says:
HAHA
but still as loving as ever
=D

Ploy says:
haha
watever

Woke at 815 today to get ready for a movie outing with KT. As usual, Sunday's M1 1-for-1 ticket so it's 5bucks per ticket. Both of us had work the previous day so we were real tired and kept yawning the way there. All for a 5 bucks ticket.


But it was worth it! 2.5 hours of major action. "Climax to the end," as KT's bro puts it. 2012 was great. It grabs you. I was so cold, but when they were like running after the planes and all I forgot entirely bout the cold. Then it made me think, made me sad. What if when I die, I die without having a boyfriend once in my life! Loser. But I think that when I die, I'll die with one--at least one--major regret.


I'll be damned if the world really ends then.



We went to Taka for donuts, as usual. Pop doh. Played Spot the Jessica game coz she was working. JESSICA SO PRO, GONNA GET 12 BUCKS AN HOUR WHILE WORKING ON CHRISTMAS! While I'm stuck with 5. This sucks man! Anyway I'm gonna get another job. A second job, I mean. Occupy myself, earn more money for what I am worth. Feel richer, feel better, feel happier, that sorta thing.

Fly myself to London, get a janitor job at the Emirates and work there for good and pay myself through college.

Work on Saturday night was busy. When I went in, Pete was leaving and he asked why I didn't get food for him. But seriously no time to talk ah. Within 20 minutes of my signing in, I already took four orders. I learnt how to key them into the touch screen! I used my workmate's ID hahaha.

The girl colleagues are so nice. They help me with the clearing. Then Ellaine told me to be the hostess so all I had to do was to welcome people in and escort them to their tables. In between I took some orders. I thought I saw Soler. The guy was wearing a cap though. Dont think it was him.


Ok, so Saturday's work wasnt so bad....



Tomorrow is Chitann's chalet! I dunno what to wear, dunno where are my shorts. I suck at stuff like that. Bam.

Gunners vs Reds tonight. Woohoo. My sister and I both hope our teams wont lose.


Goodnight yall.

Boy oh boy it is good to know ya
Is it worth it?
Let me work it!

Hahaha Missy Elliot.


House chores and work later on. I don't know who will be working with me today. Not Pete, not Rain. Pete's working in the afternoon shift and when he knocks off I'll knock in. HAHAHA KNOCK IN. Sorry. And Rain will be working on Sunday. Sian.


Anyway, the other day on Thursday, another girl came in! Her name is Fiona and she speaks softly and she is my age.

My stupid sister just threw a packet of tomato ketchup at me! Then we had a sauce packet fight. And she ran away.


Today's a boring day. You know the red lipstick I was talking about the other day? I told my mum I used it and she was like, Dunno if expire already or not, I've been using it for ten years.


I was like, O_O.


Perhaps psychologically, or physically, my lips are so dry now.


Yawn. I am bored.

There's this vibrating sound in my ear. I think the water in there from swimming hasn't come out and is hence threatening to.


IT'S GOING TO RAIN! My uniform hasn't dried yet. Shit.


Watching Football Forecast now. Hosted by a bunch of losers. FECKIN LOSERS I TELL YOU. Blah.

I was contemplating side swept bangs. But figured I look quite old. Stay Dora, stay gold.


I was browsing Facebook earlier and I was looking at one of Mao Mao (aka Kuancheng)'s albums. Gosh. Brought back good times. There was a very warm feeling. Like a pang in the chest but yet it was a good pang. Then there was nostalgia, there came memories. There came the bittersweet feeling. It's always like that when we look back on the past.

Now look at us 2 years ago.



Now I remember why they used to call me "Blackie". Thanks to trainings. I still miss my tan though! Another motive of mine to go swimming is to get darker too!

I just "fixed" my comp. Always thought it's slow, but it's alright now. I thought it was spoilt coz it kept going to sleep. Oh well. What a weird computer. Guess it just needed a rest.


AND YEAH, WITH MY NEW COMPUTER, I JUST UPDATED MY iPOD!

And I've changed my resolution.

With my second pay I won't buy a Wii. Instead, I'll buy an iPod Classic for myself!!!!!!! Unchecking songs drives me nuts.

Antony & the Johnsons... Makes me want to cry.

Fuck the world! I just realized why i've been trying to be busy.

No news is no news but,
a busy Claudia is good news!